I shall elaborate on what I started a couple days ago.

I went to see Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants on Sunday. I have no clue why, but I just started bawling my eyes out when I watched. There's something odd going on...Something's not right here. Let us take a couple steps backward and start with Saturday.

My emotions have been on the Surface so much these days. Normally, if I want to, I'd hide them or simply ignore them. On Saturday, I went to tennis first. I didn't hit that ball absolutely perfectly. I mean ABSOLUTELY PERFECTLY. And so, naturally, I got angry. One problem, that's not exactly natural for me. Under normal circumstances, I would have just ignored it. Maybe I was mad at my mom (another story), I don't know what. So since I got mad, I couldn't hit it perfectly for the rest of the lesson.

Fast forward a couple hours. Violin lesson. The teacher started bitching again because we told him we weren't going to go to lessons next week (tomorrow) and since I'm not going to lessons for 4 weeks, I'm depriving him of four weeks' worth of money. So he yelled at me for the stupidest things. The first time, I started bawling my head off. Normally, it takes about five times.

Sunday, I went to see Sisterhood...It was SAD and I mean REALLY SAD. Maybe it was because I felt all those things going on over the weekend. Favorite (sad) quotes:

"We were there for each other for the tough times we had to face...or didn't want to face"
-Carmen
She was narrating at the beginning about what good friends they were. Bridget's mother had just commited suicide (at the time of the narration, not at the time of the story). During the burial, Bridget was standing there trying not to cry, just holding her dad's hand. (Something they messed up: No mention of Bee's brother Perry whatsoever). Then the other girls were just standing there. After the burial, they all went around and hugged her. Carmen was like, "Are you gonna be okay?" And Bee was like "Yeah, just hold these shoes for me, they're killing me. I think I'll just run home and...*sniff* change." And she runs home. And that is when the quote is said.

"It's not death I'm afraid of, it's time. I don't know how much of it I have left, and I don't know how much of it I'm going to miss."
-Bailey
She's dying of leukemia. She's sitting with Tibby. And Tibby was like, Are you afraid of death? And them Bailey said this (or something along the lines of it). And I was like Aww. And then I cried, because I knew how everything was going to turn out.
Random note: I love Lena's clothes! They were so cool and not too slutty (like Bee's) not too weird/punk (like Tibby's) and not too flashy (like Carmen's)
Oh! Another quote:

"How can Kostos and Bridget, who have lost everything, be so open to love, but I, who have lost nothing, can't be?"
-Lena
She's wondering why can't she bring herself to be with Kostos, but he wants her. Maybe she's afraid of her grandparents. Kostos has lost both his parents. Bridget is boy-crazy. She's lost her mother. Lena has lost nothing, but can't love.

A movie review said that I would find a piece of myself in these four girls. Guess what? I had. Maybe that's why I was so emotional. I could relate with them. Wow.

After the movie (while I was drying my eyes out) I walked out of the thing and right near the popcorn/ refreshment place, guess who I saw??!? CONFUSED!!!!!!!!! I was going to run and hug him. He was probably going to see something crappy, like war of the worlds and stare at tom cruise or something. But that also means he's going to CTY in Session 2 (same as me) and he's also going to the same site as me, so, I MIGHT BE ABLE TO SEE HIM AGAIN!! Please let him take the same courses as me...PLEASE.